My depression has subsided.

Yesterday night I spoke to one of Jeff's best friends, John, who is going through the same thing I am in two different ways.

1. He misses his ex
2. He misses Jeff and thinks everything's changed for the worst

So I guess it helped me out a lot because it made me feel better that I'm not going crazy and there was some basis for my feelings.
I think it's worse for John though, because apparently Jeff has chosen weed over his best friends. Jeff has been getting high regularly and whenever he hangs out with his friends, that's all he wants to do.

"just burning away days and friendship...and when i told him that hes gonna end up just like his mom, fucking seeing frank every two seconds things just went downhill from there"      -John

It's so sad. I miss the old days when it would just be me, Jeff, John, and Lazaro. But I'm glad me and John got the chance to talk like we used to yesterday, it was really nice and it meant a lot.


John also told me that Jeff hasn't taken the SATs and that it's too late for him to take them. He hasn't heard from any colleges yet. I'm kind of disappointed in him. He's one of the smartest people I know, but sometimes his laziness takes over the better part of him.

I couldn't fight the urge to talk to Jeff over AIM today, so I wrote to him:

Me: "I have a bunch of your clothes at my house, do you want them back?"

Jeff: "Really? LOL Clothes would be nice. I still have your ripped ass green sweater/cardigan thingy. Bring it whenever you stop by"

Me: "hahahaha to be specific it's a pair of underwear and 3 shirts...but I didn't want to say underwear."

Jeff: "EL OH EL. You can keep the underwear if you want LMFAO"

Me: "I'm so glad you said that cause I've been wearing them everyday"

Jeff: "O_O"

Me: "I love mens underwear."  "And I hope to god you know I'm being sarcastic"

Jeff: "OH" "OH GOD"

After that we were talking about tapers and I asked him if he was gonna be home tomorrow so I could bring him his stuff. Not gonna lie, I'm looking forward to it and I'm hoping we can have a decent conversation like two human beings who acknowledge each other's existence.

In other news: 
I tried to make a dutch braid on myself today and it came out lopsided, so I'm just gonna upload this picture cause I love the way my hair looks, color-wise:

That's what the color looks like after the bleaching fail, but I really like it. I might even go lighter.


Also, my teeth feel really weird today. It feels like they're not in the right place and I have to put in effort to close my mouth completely (when all your teeth touch). When I do, it feels like my lower jaw is being pushed too far back. And chewing food is a whole different set of problems. 


Overall, today was an uneventful day but also relaxing, and I got some well-needed solitude.